"To be a warrior, it's not a simple matter of wishing to be one. It is rather an endless struggle that will go on to the very last moment of our lives. Nobody is born a warrior, in exactly the same way that nobody is born an average man. We need to make ourselves one, or the other."

So it's official. J's gone. This part of our lives is over. I already miss him, and I'm already lonely without him.

Nothing in this world worth having comes easy, I'll just keep reminding myself that.